THE HOLY SPIRIT REVEALED TO ME THE DANGER OF ANGER
Lord, may this testimony edify Your people and let the one who is attached to this issue of anger like me be delivered and find the solution the way I did. Help him to come out of this issue of anger the way You helped me deal with it. Let it be used speaking to Your people, not me. May Your blood cover me and the people of God hearing me.
In 2001 I joined Spiritual warfare ministry where I was faithfully attending prayers, night vigils, and prayer retreats. The pastor kept telling me, “When you are confused over a matter, ask the Holy Spirit, He will answer you.”
I was taught and encouraged to seek the face of the Lord at home and to confront my problem on my knees by myself. Thus we learned to build a life of fasting and prayer at home seeking the fellowship of the Holy Spirit.
I often wondered why the pastor kept saying I should ask and talk to the Holy Spirit when I’m confused. I did not know the Holy Spirit very well. In the end, I began to pray to the Holy Spirit to speak to me. Whenever I was confused I kept praying to the Holy Spirit. Finally, I managed to get Benny Hinn’s book about the Holy Spirit and when I read I discovered who was the Holy Spirit and I built a relationship with Him.
I was persevering in prayer and renouncing and walking in sanctification trying always to please the Holy Spirit and He came to give me another teaching. This time around it was about anger.
He gave me the passage of Matthew 5:21-22 You have heard that it was said of them of old time, You shall not kill, and whoever shall kill shall be in danger of the judgment: 22 But I say to you, That whoever is angry with his brother without a cause shall be in danger of the judgment: and whoever shall say to his brother, Raca, shall be in the danger of the council: but whoever shall say, You fool, shall be in the danger of hellfire.
In this passage the Spirit showed me the effect of anger. Brother, we must dread anger. We must invoke the Holy Spirit to help us to remove anger in our life. Anger is extremely dangerous. When you are angry you must understand that the Spirit of God is far from you.
Anger attracts a multitude of evil spirits to swarm around the angry person. Beelzebub is known as the lord of the flies and is present with the angry person. That is why the Spirit of God moves away from an angry person. The Holy Spirit observes Proverbs 22:24, Make no friendship with a man given to anger, nor go with a wrathful man.
The Lord opened my eyes and showed me a servant of His. He said, “This is My servant. He is angry. He is delaying repentance and failing to confess and he is serving Me with anger in his heart. As a result, he is killing people without realizing it.”
The Lord showed that when we are angry against people we are killing them and those who are angry against us are also killing us. When you are angry and you are failing to repent you are opening doorways to the spirit of hate, animosity, wickedness, insult. The Lord showed me that hate also functions like anger. It comes with bitterness and a critical spirit.
One day my husband went to work. I was doing the hair of my daughter. All the children went to the park to play but in the evening we were supposed to go to the night vigil. On that day when I was doing the hair of my daughter, I failed to realize that time was gone. I should have been getting the children ready for the night vigil. The children were still out playing in the park. They should have been back to prepare and when my husband came back from the work he saw that it was late but nobody was ready and the children were still out playing in the park.
He asked me, “Do you see the time it is now?”
It was then I realized that it was late. My husband did not like it and he rebuked me and said words that I did not like. As a result, I got angry and isolated myself in the bedroom and I went to sleep with anger failing to confess it. I did not even pray before sleeping yet we know that the enemy is always looking for doorways and legality to enter our lives and destroy us. Thus I slept with anger.
Ephesians 4:26 Be angry and do not sin; do not let the sun go down on your anger…
As soon as I closed my eyes I saw that I was surrounded. I was arrested and captured by a crowd of people I could not identify. When they arrested me they said, “We finally got her soul.”
In truth these people have been monitoring my life looking for a doorway to enter and capture my soul. These unidentified people said, “Now that we got her soul, thanks to the spirit of anger. Lead and take her to the tribunal.”
Immediately these people took me to the tribunal where I saw many of God’s children that were also captured and prosecuted. Some were arrested because of the spirit of hate in their heart. Some were arrested because of the spirit of pride in their heart. Others were arrested because they have this spirit of anger. Others were arrested because of the spirit of slander and defamation. They were many sent that were prosecuted in this tribunal. Each one was charged and condemned because of issues such as animosity, unforgiveness, and pride.
Brother we must run away from anger, unforgiveness, hate, pride, rejection. All these saints were prosecuted and condemned to death because of these things.
This condemnation to death comes in the form of serious sickness or disease like cancer which will progress until they meet death. 1 Cor 11:29…not discerning the Lord’s body. 30 For this cause many are weak and sickly among you, and many sleep.
When my turn came my accusers told the judge, “She has to die because she has anger in her heart.”
The judge told me, “Since it is evident that you are dwelling in anger you have to die. Did you bring a lawyer to defend you?”
I said, “I have no lawyer.”
Beloved there was a crowd screaming to the judge, “She has to die because she has anger.”
The judge said, “All right, you have no advocate to defend you. Now, what is your plea? Are you pleading guilty or innocent?”
I said, “I am guilty. I have an issue with anger. I accept my sin and I cannot deny it.”
I said to the judge, “Would you like to give me one minute to do something?”
The judge said, “All right, you have no lawyer. You have pleaded guilty. I give you a minute to do what you want to do.”
At that moment, I saw that I knelt on my knee and I prayed to the Lord.
I said, “Lord Jesus, forgive me, I am going to die because of anger. You have been warning me and sounding the alarm about my anger for many years. But I failed to resolve it. I told the children to go to play in the park and come back on time for we have to go to the night vigil. But they failed to listen to me. And their father came to shout at me. As a result, the spirit of anger arose in me and I went to sleep with anger. And I found myself here. I accept my sin and I will die. But my children are left in the world. I have no one to protect them. I leave them in Your hand. I know they’re going to kill me because of anger. But I ask You to forgive me.”
As soon as I finished my confession, the black veil that was my sin was replaced by a white veil. I heard the judge saying, “She is not guilty. Her advocate has come to defend her.”
Brother there is power in confession. I know if I had not confessed, I may not have come back to life. Many deceased people are judged in the afterlife before their condemnation and they are declared guilty before facing their fate. When I woke up from this experience, I was overwhelmed. I sat there on the bed in great fear. Immediately I began to confess anger.
I said, “Lord, I don’t want anger, but it’s still there. Why is this spirit of anger still attached to me? I have refused it but it is still coming. I want it to go.”
I said, “How much more should I fast and pray to be delivered from anger?”
I begged for the mercy of the Lord while crying. Immediately the Spirit of God came. I felt His presence by my side. He began to speak to me.
He said, “Esther, anger is evil and dangerous. When you are angry you will kill people. And you will open a doorway that will enable your enemy to destroy you. Anger is a doorway of demons. These demons almost killed you because of anger. This is because you have opened a doorway through your anger. Your enemies have been looking for a doorway to enter and destroy you. And they seized the opportunity from the doorway of anger and they managed to capture your spirit and they took you to the tribunal in order to condemn you to death. It is thanks to your confession that I have come to save you.”
1 John 3:15 Whoever hates his brother is a murderer, and you know that no murderer has eternal life abiding in him.
“Moses was My son. He had a lot of patience. No one had patience like My servant Moses. He had a big heart. The children of Israel subjected him to all kinds of treatment, but he had a big heart. He was interceding for them crying for them in prayer because he had a big heart. However, he was in the bondage of the sin of his ancestors, which is anger. This anger he inherited from his ancestors came to manifest at the end of his life. As a result, he could not make it to the Promised Land.”
“But what saved Moses’ soul in that critical time was a confession. For the devil came to reclaim Moses’ soul. When Moses died, the devil came with anticipation to get the soul of My servant Moses. He did not know that Moses was quicker to confess his sin, and Moses has confessed his sin at the right time. This is the reason he is in My presence.”
In Genesis 34, the Lord informed me that Moses’ ancestors Levi and Simeon had the issue of anger. This is what caused them to kill.
Genesis 34: 25 And it came to pass on the third day, when they were sore, that two of the sons of Jacob, Simeon and Levi, Dinah’s brothers, took each man his sword, and came on the city boldly, and slew all the males.
Since Moses was born in that family, even if he had patience and a big heart, Moses has inherited the spirit of anger from his ancestors. Moses had compassion for people but the spirit of anger was following him to the point that he failed to enter the Promised Land due to anger. It is Moses’ reflex to confess his sins that saved his soul. Beloved, we must be quick to confess our sin.
1 John 1:9 If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.